don't you dare look at me as anything less than what I see myself.
i'm a kid trying to make it, and that's what I want the world to know right now.

i'm just trying to get my message across. even if its been said before. it needs to be heard again, and that need will never ever be satisfied...
ever since I was old enough to remember, i've felt like I was put here for a reason, and I swear on everything I love that's the truth. there's always been something there.
I may(loathe myself) not like myself, or see the great things in me that others can (or claim to), but I do know who I am, and what I have to do.
whether or not people find me "amazing" or "special" or "unique", doesn't matter to me. because I know what I am. I have something that I need to do, and I will
gladly throw myself off the tallest building in Chicago before accepting the fact that I can't.

I can do it. I will do it. I have to do it.

don't see me as a dreamer, see me as the future.
see me as a secret. I don't believe I'm special, but I believe I'm significant.

there are thoughts in my head you couldn't dream of. there are fears, monsters, that you haven't even seen in your nightmares
i'm only fourteen and I have to deal with this.
that's why I have breakdowns, that's why I went through the overrated bitch that is cutting. it was a release because.. I was overwhelmed.
having to deal with hitting your teens, discovering who you are and dealing with the view of a WHOLE new window in your head
can get
a little
tough.

i'm glad it happened. I know how to deal with it now, I can accept it and tip toe around that monster just fine
doesn't mean it never gets scary because God, believe me, it does. but now I know that I can do it, at least.

one day I'm going to be the face that you loathe, or the song you don't understand, and I'm perfectly fine with that.
as long as to another person, i'm the face full of inspiration, the song full of hope, and something they can count on.

i'm not trying to be anyone or anything. I just want to do what has been done for me, and I want this feeling to be satisfied when I die.
long since, if possible.

all I want to do is what I'm supposed to.

this is not a wish. it's a destiny. (don't go thinking i'm always this confident.)

i'm not a dreamer. i'm a piece of the puzzle

knock me out and let me go back to sleep.

[/mbear]